for my grandmother...
a single drop of life
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Life is something best cherished when it’s held
in a palm, cupped between aged fingers. I always imagined it
to be the color of molten glass, clear yellow on the outside,
liquid red within. When my grandmother passed away,
I imagined it dripping from her fingers—not into the earth
but into my ready palms, and into my mothers’. I imagined us
holding the precious drops of rose ichor and knowing exactly
what was left for us to do. We poured it into a crystal glass
labeled memories, and set it on our kitchen counter and
surrounded it with photographs. We kindled the warmth
of the glow with our voices, fed it scraps of stories shared
from lips long silent. We baked it merengue cookies and asked it
if it had any critiques to our recipe, then brought it to the shore
of Lake Michigan and watched the sunset pale in comparison
to it, careful not to spill a single drop. And when the brilliant red
of life’s radiant glow began to dim, we knew it was time to let it go
and we returned to the hospital room to pour it back into cupped hands
where it belonged. It wasn’t easy, but it was right, and we knew
that every second spent alongside it was worth a second lifetime
without it. There are some things that can only be learned by doing,
and one of those is watching life move on. Life is something best cherished
when held in a palm, yes, but life is best lived to the fullest—
but only so full as to not spill a single drop.